Geekster...

Well, since it is my blog...does that mean I get a second to rant or ramble or whatever? :)

So, I guess I consider myself a bit of a geekster. I do goofy things and I'm quite naive and gullible but I just look at that as being someone of innocence, right?! (My brother-in-law would get a chuckle out of that because he's always trying to get me to turn red, blush, or whatever.)

I'm really not sure what my husband thinks about my being a geekster...I get crazy looks from him once in a while but he must've seen something in me in the first place to want to marry me, right?! I just hope I don't scare him...too late. He's scared.

My sister, on the other hand, is just as big of a geekster as me and it's fantastic! God knew we needed each other, truly. We've often teased that we should be married just because we 'get' eachother like no one else does...and when we crack some weird comment, we can cackle our witches laughs together while on-lookers stare blankly, not sure what to make of us. We have a dream of being neighbors someday...but I'd even settle for living within the same continent! It's been over a year since I've seen her and believe me, I need to see her face turn as red as mine when we do our wicked cackle!

I'm a bit prone to anxiety which is such a royal pain! And I think I'm realizing it's harder to deal with in the winter, when the sun is harder to come by. I'm afraid to think that it's something I'll always be trying to master. Sigh. However, I do have a testimony of the gospel of Jesus Christ and I guess this is just one of the 'dragons' I have to learn to slay while I'm here. Having that understanding, I realize, has everything to do with who I am, who I can become and of course, the incredible blessing my life is.

I love my boys so much it's almost painful. So pickin' cute...such pains in my rear! :) (It's a good thing I love them, or....) I pray that I can be the best mom I'm capable, in spite of the human inadequacies God's given me, and that I can live worthy enough to receive His guidance and direction to help me know how to be. We live in such uncertain times.... I'm thankful I have Ken who has his 'ducks in a row' to trudge through the uncertainty with me at his side. God knew I needed that too!